I just got off the phone with someone who caused me much grief 6 months ago (check the January-February archives). After a several month hiatus, she found her way back into my life seemingly wanting to try again.
Last night, I discovered that her mind had changed. Again, she didn't feel the same for me as I did for her, but this time she was dealing with the new Johnny. This is the Johnny who doesn't let people dick him around. I expressed some bold and presumptuous hypotheses as to the fluctuation of her feelings, the most important of which was an unnamed fear that exists in her mind - a fear that prevented her from releasing her boa constrictor grip on her life and truly becoming free.
Last night, she didn't know what that fear was, but tonight she did: her mother. More specifically, her mother has issues with me and it is somehow severely affecting her to the point that she can't love me. Granted, that she most likely has issues of her own with me (none of which she could or would name), but this mother issue was serious enough to be the topic of tonight's conversation.
I won't go into the details, but I will say that I laughed at all three of the issues she mentioned that her mom has with me. This was probably in poor taste, but I explained my actions. You see, the issues mentioned were trivial to me, and the fact that these were important to her made me laugh. I wasn't laughing at her at all. I was laughing at how glad I was that I had escaped what would have undoubtedly been a shitty situation.
Of course, the outcome wasn't a happy one for me. I was looking forward to having my universal confidant and inamorata back, but the reality is that my feelings for her would have gone unreciprocated.
All I can do is thank her for making the right decision at this point, but something tells me that this story isn't over.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
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*hug*
bitches I tell you
Haha...Johnny, her mother doesn't like you? I find that very strange because...you're a great guy and I would think most moms would be delighted if their daughters brought the Johnny home.
As for what to do about her, I can't say that I am one to take relationship advice from. And, so, I probably shouldn't try to give any. But...consider this.
Don't let this drag on forever. If she needs time for whatever reason, you can give her time. But tell her that you're not going to hang around forever.
Thanks all.
I agree completely with Kevin about the "delighted" part, and I even told her that before you suggested it. I'm also way ahead of you in the "not going to hang around" part. In fact, my exact words were "I'm not going to wait for you."
I'm looking forward to the end of this week.
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